The Pressure Of 2019

At the start of the year there is always such a massive pressure to become this new healthy person that's got all they're shit together. The last few weeks I've been feeling really anxious and stressed about trying to achieve all my goals this new year. There's so much pressure surrounding the new year and making sure your keeping on track and doing what your suppose to and if not then you've lost it and that's often where a lot of people give up all together. I've made it no secret that I want to pass my driving test this year and honestly I've been really struggling with it. Some things come really natural to some people and some things just don't to others.

I've never had a want really to drive at all. I'm not bothered by it in the slightest just know its that thing I have to do and i know i'll be so happy when i do. It's just constantly finding the motivation and the energy to do that thing or that goal that you set yourself which is the hardest thing. I was lying in bed the other night thinking of everything I had to do and honestly I got really stressed out and overwhelmed by it all. I have set a lot that I want to achieve this year and I know I can do it, but I was thinking we're already in February and I've hardly done anything apart from go to the gym which is what i was already doing lol! I have dealt with stress a lot in the past 5ish years and i know it is something i am extremely familiar with so I know my own personal ways of coping with it and that is to organise myself. But its so so hard to do when you feel discouraged and that your never going to achieve it. But I find the only thing I can do which makes me feel better is to organise my life in a way which I can then make time and schedule in time to do the things i want because if you don't put the time in you wont get anything out of it! All I can say to you and to myself is don't give up on it whatever it is and even when you feel like you've got a million things your juggling just keep going because it is going to be so worth it!