Weekly Diary #4 April 3rd- 9th 2017

This morning we got up super early as I had stayed over Kieran's again last night because we got back quite late from Thorpe Park and we were both so tired. So this morning was a real struggle to get out of bed, but I actually didn't go back to bed when I got home surprisingly! As I hadn't been home in about 3 days I had quite a lot of things to do and get organised as well so spent most of the day doing that. I got an amazon package in the morning and it was a photo album I had ordered. I've got loads and loads of photos stored under my bed as my parents are divorced most of my childhood photos consist of us all as a family and as both of my parents are remarried it would be weird for them to keep them I guess. Anyway so I've got loads and loads of loose photographs and wanted to store them tidily so I got a big as album to fill them up! That took quite a lot of time out of the day as it is and I also have nearly finished painting my room which is so good! Then Kieran came over to my house in the evening which was nice and my mum made us a lovely dinner and we've just had a nice chilled evening.

Today hasn't been the been the best day. I woke up feeling really weird this morning, I stayed at Kierans last night and felt so drained when I first woke up. When I got home I tried going back to sleep but I was having really weird dreams and it made me feel really anxious when I woke up, like something had happened. I had an appointment today with a requirement agency because I had applied for a job and it must have been through them. So that was at 1pm and I made sure I got ready and had a good breakfast and I actually wasn't that nervous for once. I had to go there first of all to do this test which I didn't think i did that well but after that I sat down and I hadn't remembered my passport or NIN which was so annoying because I never forget anything, so that kind of pissed me off. So there wasn't anything else to do so I had to come back on Friday to show all that stuff. I spent the next couple hours walking and mooching around town to try and help my shitty mood then went back home. I spent the next few hours sorting my bombsite of a room out and waiting for Kieran to finish work. Bless him, he didn't finish until about half 6 so not the best day for both of us, but I got an email tonight from a company wanting to arrange an interview so feeling hopeful for that!

This morning I woke up in agonising period pain which was so delightful! I've been having period symptoms for about a week and a half two weeks now and actually haven't had anything until today. To be honest i'm actually glad its came so I can get rid of it and get on with my life haha! I've just been feeling weird today and I don't know why, like I don't know what to do with myself and I just keep feeling like I should be doing something all the time when I don't even need to be. Then whens there's actually something I need to remember I bloody forget all about it which isn't like me at all! So today I've just been pottering around really and everything's making me feel really irritated but there isn't anything to be irritated about i'm just being annoying! Kieran's finishing work late again tonight as hes really busy at work at the moment so I've been staying round his house near enough every night just because we've had like 2 hours together in the evening. I feel a lot more healthy and a bit more back to normal health wise today which is good. The last 5 days or so I've been feeling really really drained and all I've been wanting to eat is chocolate 24/7. Its so weird its been like period mode but for like a week haha! Today I just honestly can't wait for the weekend!

Today is now Thursday and I honestly can't believe how fast this week has gone (I swear I say that every week haha) I got up early this morning(to more period pains) because I had an interview at 9:30! It was for an admin assistant job so I was feeling super nervous as I obviously have no experience whatsoever. I'm currently looking for another job to fill the other 4 days in the week I'm not working to try and get as much money possible for the wedding, holiday, house, etc. So I went to the interview and it actually went so so well and put me in such a good mood. They were talking lot about my Photography A Level because they did all they're website photography in house which obviously I was interested in! Then I came back home and took a lot of outfit blog photos which all went well! I then received an email to say that I didn't get the job but it didn't bother me too much as it was my first admin interview and was good experience. Then I got the bus over to meet Kieran for when he finished work and he finished at normal time which was good as today it was Kieran's mums birthday. When we got home we all had a Chinese take away which was so nice and gave Kieran's mum her birthday present and card. Then Kieran's uncle and auntie came over and had a nice time chilling and catching up with them which was lovely. So overall it was a good day.

On Friday morning I woke up after the most horrendous nights sleep in a long long time. Just before I left Kieran's house that night my hayever started getting really bad all of a sudden, just completely out of no where which was strange but I thought it would be fine as I usually just get on with it and the symptoms die down. But they got worse and worse throughout the evening which was so weird so I was up all night because my nose would not stop running for the life of me and it kept waking me up again and again. So I woke up around 8ish and just had a bit of a chilled out morning and got ready. I had an appointment back with the requirement agency at 1pm again, which I wasn't feeling too good about because of how that bloody test went on Tuesday. Anyway I went in and got to the appointment and sat down and there was two other people sat there waiting as well so I could just sit and wait for a bit which was nice. I then went over and sat down with the women who worked there and she was actually so lovely and I had a really nice and normal conversation with her. I had for some reason made it out in my head like it would be a weird interview thing but it wasn't at all. I had about 40 minutes until my shift started at work so I went and had a lookie in primarni for a bit and I actually wan't feeling too anxious this time because of what a good weekend I had last week. I went in and not going to lie it wasn't a good day I just felt really useless everything was going wrong and there wasn't really anyone to help me out and I just was feeling shit and for the rest of the day I was standing around clock watching and couldn't bloody wait to get the fuck home! I got home and was just feeling really tense and on edge afterwards and I had no reason to whats so ever as Kieran's mum and dad have gone away for the weekend so we've got the house to ourselves. But after I saw Kieran I felt a lot better and we went to the spa again and had a chilled one.

This morning was so so nice! It was an absolute beautiful day today and the weathers been so nice which just makes me feel so much better about life because I absolutely adore the sun! I got up about 9ish and got all ready for work and then spent the next two hours or so talking to Kieran's close family friend Angie who had come round to cut Kieran's sisters hair this morning. So that was really lovely and drank lots of tea and started the day off in a really nice and relaxing way. I got to work and everything kind of hit the pan. I really really tired to stay positive about it, but when your just standing around doing nothing and not talking to anyone for your whole shift it does kind of get to you and I only work 9 bloody hours and today I just really felt like whats the point. I got home anyway and just felt really upset and pissed off about everything so i'm just going to sit on it for a few days and have a think. Then when I got home I sorted out the cats as we're looking after them this weekend and we made dinner which was nice and just really settled down and chilled for the evening really and glad today's over haha!

Today was the best end to the week! It hasn't been the best week for me to be honest but everything about today was so perfect. Kieran's mum and dad were still away last night so we had a lovely chilled morning together just me and Kieran and had tea and breakfast together. I got straight in my bikini as it was so so hot today, and the hottest day of the year so far! I went out in the garden and went and sunbathed for a couple hours while Kieran was in studding. We then went for such a lovely 2 and a half hour walk around Lydiard Park in the beautiful 24 degree weather! Me and Kieran love love love walking together especially when its hot. We sat in the park and had some drinks as well which was so nice. When we got back we made dinner/ lunch as it was about half 4ish and I cleaned yp the house and everything and made sure all the cats were okay. Then we just chilled for a bit and kieran's mum and dad came home and were talking to us about there weekend away which was nice and sounds like they and a lovely time. Kieran came back to mine for a bit as my mums gone away for a week and my step dad is at a concert so we just cuddled up together before he went back home. So today was absolutely perfect and I have the best fiancee in the world.