Weekly Diary #3 March 27th- April 2nd 2017

The week started off in a good way. Kieran booked two days off after the weekend, just to spend some days chilling out and doing a few fun things before it gets really busy at work for the next two months. So on Monday morning we got up early as Kieran had a appointment at the hospital as hes had a lot of trouble with his tinnitus. The appointment went really well and hes now on the mend which i'm really happy about because he has had such a hard time with it over the last month or so. After that I had a dentist appointment straight after which went well and I've got no holes yaaay! I absolutely hate hate hate the dentist and it really gives me anxiety, unfortunately i do genetically have bad teeth but for the last two checkups I've had to have no fill ins which is so good! After all the appointments we went into town and had a little look about and got Kieran's hair cut, so just had a day of doing bits and bobs which was productive and had a chilled evening. Over the last couple of weeks we've been thinking about moving gyms as we just haven't been feeling ours for a few reasons. We've looked at a couple but they've just been weird but there was one left we still were yet to see. So we turn up to this place and I haven't been to the gym in like two weeks since having tonsillitis, so i full on had to hype myself up for it. We got there walked in and literally walked straight back out, literally it was the weirdest gym I have ever stepped foot in. And then we went back home to our gym and not going to lie I missed it so much and I had such a killer workout after being out for two weeks!

Tuesday we were meant to be going to Alton Towers because we thought we would do something fun with the day off. But unfortunately the weather wasn't on our side and it would be pissing it down all day today. And as you can imagine Swindon is a long ass way from Alton Towers so we didn't want to go all the way there for a shitty day. So we started off the day with a big ass lie in and didn't get up until 12pm lol! It was so so needed. We then had a little clean up of the house while Kieran's mum was out and then we thought we'd still do something nice and went to the spa for the day. It was so nice and we spent about 3 hours in there just relaxing.

Today is Wednesday and I've had such a lovely day. My step mum has recently got a new job and so I asked my dad if he needed help looking after my little sister. Luckily one out of the two days I've got left free he said that today would be the best day as its the last days Cheryl's working this week. So my dad picked me up at 9am this morning after he dropped my step mum at work, then we went over to ASDA. It's funny how even the little things i enjoy so much with my little sister. It really has been a privilege watching her grow so much already. (If you want to hear that story in more detail its in my first ever blog post "2015 New Beginnings") It was so cute pushing her in the ASDA trolley and also spending some time with my dad and not just going out for dinner or drinks. We went back home and I played with Ellie for a bit and then we went for a lovely walk with the dog. We came back home, played some more and then we all had some lunch which was so good. Ellie was so tired after her food as she was well over due her nap so we cleaned her up and she snuggled up on me and we watched some CBBies which was so cute. After that she was straight off to sleep bless her and Kieran finished work at 4 so he picked me up on the way back and had just a chilled evening.

Thursday was such a nice chilled day. It was the first day I have actually spent at home all week so I made use of it! I did loads of bits and bobs that were mounting up on my to do list and it was such a beautiful day so I also spent some quality time with my dog Millie and we went out for such a nice walk. No joke it was like 18 degrees so of course I got straight on getting the shorts out cus as soon as its over 16 its hot i don't care what you say lol! I spent the rest of the day sorting out my stuff for the weekend at Kieran's, taking blog photos and also painting another coat on my bedroom walls which is nearly done haha! I went round Kieran's in the evening and we went to the gym and spa we bought the 20 passes for which was sooo nice. The gym is so shit so we just did a quick cardio session ans then we spent like 2 hours swimming! I absoultey love love love swimming and it makes me feel so relaxed and not anxious (whatever the word is lol) which is why I love it and I always have, even when I was a baby putting me in water was the only thing to shut me up from crying! So we had such a nice evening.

On Friday we had to get up super early because I stayed round Kieran's on Thursday night so he could drop me home and get to work for 8am. For some reason I just felt so exhausted all morning. I really wanted to get up early have a shower and be super productive but I ended up getting home and going back to bed for 3 hours! Nice one! haha! But I really did need it until I got woken up to my mum standing with my door wide open and the plumber round drilling a hole in the wall! I didn't start work until 2pm so I got up about 10ish and watched some day time tv and tried to muster up some energy get some my shit together. I felt really drained and like all I wanted to do was hide away in bed and sleep all day long and was definitely not in the mood for work. "Said every person ever" So anyway I got the bus in at one and went on into town. I got into work and they said they were gonna start training me on a few more things today, which from that point the angels came down from heaven and started singing. I was so happy to actually be doing something and not just feeling like I'm the fucking new person getting in everyone's way. So for the rest of the day I was being trained by someone I have been really getting along with and just overall made my day feel so much better and also go faster which is a win. When I left work Kieran was already home so I came home to a lovely roast dinner his mum made me and then we went for another evening at the spa which was so needed.

Today is now Saturday and this morning we had a fat lie in, well 10am which is quite a long lie in for me now haha! I started work at 12pm today and its honestly been the first day where I actually haven't felt anxious about going after such a good day yesterday. As soon as I got in I was straight down to business and was pretty much was non stop for the whole of my shift which was just fab. I really got on with everyone there and am getting more involved with everyone too which is making me feel so much better. I came out feeling so relieved and happy today and I feel so positive. Even though I'm not in full time work at the moment and I know I'm not financially in the best place, I'm really enjoying myself and the time I do have and I'm feeling really good about it.

We decided a few days ago that we wanted to go to a theme park and we thought Sunday would be the best day as I'm working Saturdays and the weather was suppose to be on our side. We booked our annual passes again last night as it works out cheaper and me and Kieran absolutely love theme parks and rollarcosters. We woke up early this morning to go and packed a little packed lunch that mainly consisted of shit food (but so yum) and hit the road, not forgetting that sausage and egg mac muffin though! We had a bit of a detour on the way as half of the motorway was shut of this morning, but it was an absolutely beautiful morning so we thoroughly enjoyed the country side and had a really fun time driving and talking together. The day was so so nice and of course we went on some sick rides and it was such a stunning day so it was so perfect. But the best thing about it all was spending some quality time with my beautiful fiancee. Even though we do see each other every day we don't often have a day where we spend it together and doing something we both enjoy. I really did have the best day today and I love nothing more than spending days with Kieran because he is my everything and spending time with the only person who gets you and truly knows you, is the best thing in the world and today has really made me appreciate him so much more and I couldn't have ended my week in a better way. I'm feeling so so positive about things and ready to take on any shit this next week has for me! Legooooo!