Weekly Diary #2 March 20th- 26th 2017

Monday was a good day. I spent the day helping my mum tidy up the house as my step dad is away with work at the moment. We then went out lunch which was lovely and had a fat dessert (starting the week off right) lol! We didn't go to the gym Monday night as I'm still not feeling 100% I'm feeling really ready for this week a lot more motivated and ready than I have been over the last few weeks. I really want to try and make everyday count and do something with my free time while I have it!

Tuesday was really productive. I love days when I get up early and get on with my todo list (how old am I?) I slept over Kieran's house last

night so I woke up early in the morning with him and went home. I got home about 8am and decided to get straight on with some jobs! My mum had wanted me to do some jobs on the days when I was off work, and I really don't mind as I love tidying and organising lol! So today she wanted me to repaint all of the hallway. Because we have a dog as you would imagine it's not as fresh as it once was. I got nearly the whole hallway done in about 2 hours before my mum had even got up! And then I got started on my room. My room is an absolute mess in every way. I've got way way too much stuff for my room and it's just madness in there tbh! Anyway I'm hating the colour of my room at the moment and I thought of just repairing the walls white to freshen it up a bit and make it feel a bit nicer while I'm in there. So I spent the whole day painting and painting and as you can imagine pairing white over hot pink can take quite a while. That was all going well and I got the bus to Kieran's today and on my way I got a call asking if I can do more hours at my new job which really buzzed me! I want all the work I can get at the moment to save for the wedding so I'm so up anything!

I had my second day at my new job on Wednesday and in the morning i was feeling really anxious in the morning. I didn't start until 2 so had a good lie in and was still feeling anxious by the time i got there, my first day wasn't that fab so I was nervous to see what they had install for me to do today. I took a deep breath and walked in. Luckily as soon as i got in they got me straight to work which put my mind to rest. I was sat working given quite a lot to do and left to get on with it for the whole day. We didn't end up finishing until 8:30pm which meant I ha got 6 and a half hours of overtime which was fab and I ended up having a really good day and getting a lot more used to the people and the place!

I was suppose to work 12-4 today but as i imagined work called me up to say they didn't need me today so i didn't have to go in, which even though i need the money i was so tired today. Although I didn't do too much but i took off my acrylics which was interesting as it was the first time i have had acrylics put on and i would differently say it is a job getting those bad boys off! Nearly finished painting my room, until the paint ran out yay lol, and i went on a walk with my dog! So not very productive but a little relaxing one! Yesterday a terrorist attack happened in London which really threw me to be honest, this is the second time that I've heard of an attack in London in my lifetime and i guess the only time I've actually been old enough to be aware of it. London has always been somewhere that has been very close to my heart for multiple reasons and where some of my best childhood memories. I know that this has been happening all around the world and it was only a matter of time until London was hit, but it just feels very very real when its in your own country and so close.

Friday didn't start off the best. I woke up from a really weird dream and felt really really panickey and anxious about the day ahead for some reason. I've been feeling anxious in the mornings a lot recently and i'm not sure why. I started work at 2pm so tired to have a relaxing morning and then i met Kieran for lunch at a pub in old town before I started. It was really nice and made me feel a lot better about things. My shift went okay, a bit boring just because i'm still getting into it but it wasn't too long. After work I came back home and then went straight back out again. I went out to have a few cocktails with two of my friends who i haven't seen in so long. It was so nice to have a girly catch up and a laugh and i had such a lovely evening.

Saturday I was working again in the day which went a bit better than Friday as of course Saturday is always busy. I went in not feeling too good, i felt really anxious and didn't want to go in at all but something I always think when i'm feeling like that before work is that at least i'm going to keep busy talk to people who don't know and keep my mind off the feeling. And it turned out to go really well and I actually ended up having a really good day. I got home and chilled with Kieran for a bit then got ready. I got invited to go on a night out from Friday by my two friends which I was so up for, after a morning of feeling like shit and being around everyone stressing it was nice to go out, especially as I haven't been out with them before. We went to a club in old town and ended up having such a good night, I got way way too pissed as per usual but I had such a good time and it was so needed!

Sunday was mothers day and luckily I didn't wake up hanging out of my ass as I threw up when I got home Lol! Me and Kieran got up early and gave his mum her present which she really liked and we cleaned the house in the morning for her. We were going to take both our mums out for cream tea in the afternoon but everywhere was fully booked so we decided to do s cute thing at home. We went out to waitrose and bought loads of nice cakes and scones and tea and my mum came over and i gave her present as well. We had such a nice day and the weather was beaut, the first proper warm day we've had so far which was nice! Then we ended the week off with another cheeky dominos, i feel like i've said that before lol!