2015 New Beginning

Throughout this year of 2015 so many things have happened and change my life and things that I have hoped that would happen finally have.

Number 1. The first and indeed the best thing to happen was that I met the love of my life on the 21/09/14. I've always wanted a serious relationship that would lead to the end result of marriage. I see no point in having a pointless relationship for it to lead to nowhere, which my past two "relationships" turned out to be. I've known Kieran since I was about 4-5 years old as he went to my primary school and then soon became friends with my older brother. Then two weeks before my 18th my brother invited me round for a "party" and Kieran was also there. After that we started talking and then met up again on the 21st. The second week I started seeing Kieran he asked me to be his girlfriend and since then I knew I was going to marry him. And on 25/05/15, Kieran asked me to marry him. This was one of the best days of my life and I'm so amazingly happy that everything just happens so naturally and perfectly that that's when you know it's meant to be, when someone comes out of nowhere and completely changes everything!!

Number 2. My relationship with my dad has been a bit rocky since my mum and Dads divorce in 2009. Me and my dad stopped talking for two years in about 2011 and then after them two years I wanted things to improve between us and at first it did. But I think as them two and a half years went on and I was about 17 at the time, I think he thought that I was old enough not to see him as much as I think I should. And this has continued. I really wanted something to happen that would change this and bring me, my dad, my brother and my step mum together as a family unit. And we found out on Father's Day 2015 that my step mum is pregnant with a baby girl, and she is due on the 28th December 2015. Now I didn't know they would be able to conceive as my dad had a vasectomy a number of years ago after I was born, and also my step mum had problems also being able to conceive. So as you can see this would be impossible for them to have a child together. What I didn't know was that my dad had a reversal vasectomy 5 years ago, so they could try for a baby and see if it would work. In this process they were told that if my step mum doesn't get pregnant in a year after the operation, it won't work. And then 5 years later she is now pregnant. I believe everything happens for a reason. In those 5 years, me and my brother are both talking to my dad again, my dad and Cheryl are now married and also me and my brother are old enough to be there for our sister as well. I honestly think this has been a miracle and I can't wait to meet my baby sister!!

Number 3. Last night my mums dad, my grandad, or we call Gonkey, died last night. No I know this isn't a good thing, but Gonkey has been Ill ever since I can remember. He first had cancer while my mum was pregnant with my brother, which is now 23 years ago!! Since then he has had a range of many different illness, from broken ribs, awful chest infections and 2 or 3 different types of cancer and many more!! The night before my mums second wedding 6 years ago, he was rushed into hospital after having a mini stroke. And we were in and out of hospital with him for months after this and then he moved up to Nottingham to stay with my auntie.I can say that after that moment he wasn't the same, mentally. Yes he was still the same silly, friendly, chirpy man he always was, but he had no short term memory only what he could remember from having his own children. The fact that he couldn't remember me was horrible, that was one thing that I treasured about my other grandad, is that he was mentally there and aware right until the end!! My Gonkey was one of them just beautiful people who was so patient and calm. He always knew how to cheer anyone up and could always make you laugh. He had a love and a passion for singing, most of my memories are of me singing with him. And he was married to my nan, who has mental problems and was honestly cruel to him at times, he still loved her for who she was and stood by her through everything. And that just shows what kind of man he was. And even though he's gone now I'm happy, because he hasn't been right for a long time and he's not suffering or in pain anymore and I'm happy that he's safe and he'll be singing in heaven!!

This year has honestly been the best year so far, and everything that has happened has been the best for me. And I can't wait to see what else is in store this year!! <3